Well, huh.
I would say that things have changed and still are.
I just read Steven's blog on Love...and sex. I find it all so confusing and ridiculous, really.
I'm happy. To say I'm not would be a lie - or would it?
No. I am. I really am.
I have my family, church and life back. And my best friend. Who I'm completely in love with. Dang.
It's inevitable. And like I said before, who was I kidding besides myself? Well, him.
And the other guy. But I don't think THAT guy was really fooled.
I'm an awful liar and I know it. Do you know how many times I lied?
I hate lying but I found myself doing it. He couldn't know. That would've broken his heart. Not that I didn't manage that anyway....
But, really. Why am I always the heartbreaker?
For once, don't I deserve to have MY heart broken?? I don't want it..I really don't. But I feel like I've done my fair share and it's only a matter of time until karma kicks in.
Perhaps what I've done to myself is enough, though.
Oh man. Consequences.
That's a whole other subject.
But I should go put my scrubs on now :)
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:) I hope my blog didn't get you too down? I was really upset at that point in time.
ReplyDeleteI hope your life is on track for you, the way you want it. It sounds like you may be going through some hard times, and if so I hope the road is short and the battles truncated.
I love you a lot. Keep that in mind.
Steven
Steven, I love you too. Sorry it took me so long to reply :/
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