YIELD

I just want to say I feel sort of lame for using road signs as my last two post titles...Inge Fest all over again.

Oh. I wrote a song. I'll write the lyrics but of course it's better with guitar ;)

"1, 2, 3"
By Me

Open up your mouth and the light exploding
We're riding sphynxes through a changing sky
Honest Abe trying to take over
Until an alligator happens by

Confusing springtime, no one gives a damn
Take your pick, hotboxing on back highways
Take a fiery picture, burn it in your retinas
Turn it up please, Silver soundwaves

Supernova taking over (2x)

Take a number, take one please.
Add em up now - 1, 2, 3
My heart is a gun aimed at yours
Once I'm gone love is chore

Supernova taking over (2x)

Dark dormrooms and open blinds
First time smoking a joint with you
I'm on fire, it's burning in my kneecaps
Please don't tell me that we're through

Supernova taking over (3x)


So....it looks super lame written down. But it tells a story.

I'm kinda at the point right now where I'm in limbo. Again.

Mom is taking me and my cousin Heather to visit a christian college four hours away. We're leaving tonight and staying in Wichita tonight then heading to Haviland to Barclay college tomorrow.

I know it's like family history to go there and blah blah blah....But the stubborn part of me doesn't want to go!
Not that anyone will force me to go anywhere in particular (ha) but it's still just frustrating to have all this pressure.

The school has free tuition and I'd live on campus but considering they're a small christian college, they only offer nursing, elementary education and forms of theological study. Everybody is like yeah, but even "if you went there for one year it would be invaluable!"
I don't know what's invaluable anymore.
Or valuable.

I know my relationship with Christ is improving...
Which can mean everything or nothing.

I also know that my emotions for him are not abating much.

In the words of the great Atmosphere - "And all I could do is think about sleeping next to you."

This is a question that has been flying around my skull for a good month: Do I miss you or the way you made me feel?